Movement

So on Aug 15th we are going to selection panel on little girl "I". On Aug 26th we are going to selection panel on 2 little boys "D" & "J". They are called red file meetings. Yeah I have no idea why, but they are. So by the end of the month we may have some big change ups going on. "I" will not require a long transition period, if we are chosen for her, where as the boys will most likely require a good amount of transition time.

Which brings us to a few things...

The girls may be moving sooner than we thought, not home, but a family member has stepped up and may get approved. After the CFT the CPS worker was worried that we were going to straight up disrupt and that they would need to find another home for them, at this state they do not want to do that obviously. But because I was not at all on board with the school issues and the random parental visits, they are worried, yeah I get that. However, we are NOT at the stage that we would just request that they be moved. CPS dealt with the transportation and I got my daughter on board to pick up some babysitting that I would need in order to keep my Operating Room Training Program that starts in two weeks. Although with that being said hubby has expressed to me that he is at his end point and has stated that he would like them to go sooner rather than later. 1 because he is starting to get too attached to the little one that he just doesn't want to see her go, and two because he is in wayyy over his head with the oldest one's behaviors and needs.


Now despite not being at the disrupting point and resigned to them staying until September, we are also not willing to have them until December (as someone pointed out) with the way things have been handled with all of this... If this case should drag on and on, we just are not in a position where we want to continue to have everything constantly in a state of chaos where they are concerned. Since this case has NO possible permanency chance with us, to drag on and on the way it has been is just not something that we want to continue to do. We have always stated that long term foster care for us will be with medically fragile children and that is all. But it also throws in jeopardy the adoptive placements. If chosen we don't want months and months to go by with these kids sitting in their lack of permanency situations. Or we don't want this placement to jeopardize our being chosen because we aren't "available" yet and a less than ideal alternative is accepted.

So we shall see how things turn out. I am willing to continue until the end of the month, at which time we will know where we stand with the adoptive placements too. What is willed shall be... and I have to accept that.