I am pretty drained of this daily putting my life on hold because the parents have visits at any damn time they'd like to show up, not to mention the grandparents have visits and return the children any damn time they want to as well.
Last week 8am on a Saturday, no word this week yet, it seems they are avoiding my text messages, but they haven't come and picked them up yet either, so we were ready early incase there was yet another missed communication and they showed up while we were all sleeping or something, might I add it's a Saturday and we were up early!! I am beyond pissed at this. Mind you every minute I get little whiny voices coming to ask, "When are Mommy and Daddy coming?"
Between the transportation issues for school which is also not at a convenient time for our lives, we have to add in 6 days a week where we have to be home or get home or something regarding a time issue, per the whims of whatever was convenient for the family. How about the people here on the front lines dealing with the fallout of this? How about having to be a meany all the time because I am the one saying " No or I don't know all the time." While the parents get restaurants, go to the lake, or bike riding excursions. Not to mention all the special blankets they keep sending home. WTF is with the blanket obsession with this family? Seriously they came with more blankets than toys or clothes.
Needless to say, I couldn't go away with hubby this weekend because, even though we could have taken the girls with us, we couldn't because they were supposed to have a visit today. We couldn't go to an event on Thursday because it was scheduled to get out the same time as their visit was finished and we may not have made it home in time. Don't get me started on why I had to drop out of a class I had been waiting years to take because of this whole scheduling thing!
So here it is nearly 10am, the girls were told they were going to be spending the day at the lake today with their parents, they were excited, they spent all last night having issues about everything because of the stress the excitement causes, so much so that I had to change the bedroom of the oldest to move her away from her little sister, because they are so beyond frustrated, scared, and uncertain about their future. "What if Mom and Dad are inappropriate again and we can't stay with them?" " I don't think we are ever going home." "Why is it another month?" How do you support trust, when they have been let down so much?
I tried to explain to them that they are progressing so much and that we have to follow a plan. In 10 days they start sleepovers, of course who knows if that will actually happen. Now that the original CM is back in the picture emails and phonecalls do not get returned, and I am the last to know everything, but ya know the first to be blamed for everything.
*** In other news today I feel emotionally drained.***
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